Another night of tossing and turning and running to the bathroom, and I was put out. Put out as in frustrated beyond my limits. This has been my thorn in the flesh for the past six years. I’ve tried just about everything to help me sleep. Every non-habiting forming, natural sleep-aid that didn’t cost an arm and a leg, I have tried and found them wanting. There are some nights that it helps, but they don’t always help.
It’s bad enough that my colon wakes me up to go potty in the middle of the night, but when my spirit is restless it makes sleep my elusive friend that I just can’t seem to get in touch with. I call and she doesn’t answer. What is a girl to do to get some sleep around here?
In the midst of my search for sleep, I’ve been on a fast, seeking God for direction to my next step. Just prior to starting a Bible study at my church, I felt the Lord direct me into a different path and so I canceled it. Ok, now what?
In one of my moments of prayer I felt the Lord asking me, What price are you willing to pay to know Me?
What a thought!
What a question!
“But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of knowing Christ. Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord.” Phillipians 3:7-8a
Paul gave up a lot to know Christ. He gave up his position as a respected Pharisee. He gave up his reputation within the Jewish religious elite to know Christ.
There is nothing we do to earn salvation, but there is a price to pursuing Christ and knowing Him. Jesus posed this same decision before the disciples. The original disciples had the choice to give up their own reputations and livelihood as fishermen, to follow Jesus. He posed the same decision before the rich young ruler, who sadly, walked away from Him, not willing to give up what he had.
We can look at what we lose to follow Christ or we can look at what we gain. We gain the surpassing worth of knowing Christ. Knowing Jesus is worth far more than anything we can gain on this earth. You name the riches and knowing Christ is worth far more!
I put on the altar my precious sleep. My prayer has been, “Lord, I give you my sleep time. Whatever you want to do with it, help me to know You. If You want me to pray, then lead me.”
It’s a tough prayer to pray, I admit. And I can’t say that every time I’ve tossed and turned I got up to pray instead. Most of the time I am still too asleep to even be conscience enough to pray. I’m asleep enough to dream but semi-awake enough to know I’m in bed asleep.
My desire is to be devoted to pursuing Christ. I want to pursue Christ to know Him. And as Paul finishes out this thought he says,
“That I may know Him and the power of His resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead.” Phil. 3:10-11
By any means possible.
I’d say Paul was pretty serious about knowing Christ to say “by any means possible”. But the goal Paul had in his sight was knowing Christ and being acquainted with the power of the resurrection.
My teacher in school used to say, “Every one wants resurrection power, but no one wants to die to get it.”
Do we really believe in the surpassing worth of knowing Christ? If we do, we will count every thing else as worthless and pursue Christ with a reckless abandon. No price too high.
And Beloved, I suspect that He is worth it. Pursue Him! You will gain so much more than what this world can offer.